i kept wanting to blog abt it but i keep procrastinating.and today i felt bcoz i dowan the memory to fade i better pen it down.oct 2008 was memorable. thx alot guys. How it all happened? A fren from sch suddenly msn me one fine dae asking me for a "date". at the back of my head and deep down inside i noe something was up coz its really out of the blue kind of qns. and when i actually qn back and asked why, i got this vibe tt " u better nt ask anymore or i whack u" kind of feel. so i said yes. lol. i was asked if i felt akward abt going out. truth is i was. but october babies are known to be egoistic, so i said no. alot of shuffling of the dates but finally decided on a day and time.

On the morning of the day, as i was heading for work, i received a sms which really creeps me out and made me nervous as wreck for the rest of the dae.

at 8.36am

s-Gd morning Syaf! Nnti ptg u pat mana? Hehe..

( ok, wads with the u rite?tts a lil weird)

8.40 am

s- klu ko sudi pegang, apa slhnya kan.. Confrm tml morning our faces will be on the news.. Btw.. Ku mcm tk caya ko nk date dgn aku..Hehe..So u rch work already huh?

( ok, i got freaked out major here.arent u overdoing it?its finally sinking, is this for real?)

So i msg the Linzee of chokolitte and ask her if she's free or not.coz suspect kuat giler mcm tongkat ali nyer kuat gitu tt she got something to do with this.so i trieeed very hard to squeeze the truth out of her. bt kalau if betol betol she got really nothing to do with it den mcm paiseh giler babz.den she INSISTED that she's going out with her mum after work.and she acted DUMB.and she kept a very straight face the past few daes i asked her the same qn.fine.

den

at 11.12,
s- Ku book ko whl day tau.. Jgn ada plans lain k..:D

( nk buat apeeer eh whole daee? i dnt even know where we're going. TT made me even more wreckish)

like even when i went out with nagebot without having any conversations prior to the meeting or with Ysn without even knowing hw he looks like or who he is,or nurse whm im acquaintd with and hv nt seen for the last 5 yrs, I WASNT ACTING THIS STUPID OR FELT THIS blardie nervous before lah.

bcz at the back of my mind i was expecting it nt to be real, to be some kind of deviation or distraction prior to a particular event. bt it seems more and more like the dae was just tt and not more than tt.

at least at work i was bz-ied with the kids and all.bt came lunch time i was like.omg omg omg omg.lol. and i received a phone call and because i was in midst of conducting my post test, i have to sound serious rite? lol.sorry if u tot i sounded very fierce. Due to unforeseen circumstances i finshd like way earlier than expected. i was thinking if i meet him earlier i cn go off earlier.get to fetch my bro home frm camp or something. bt then again, the later i meet him also better coz wont get to spend the whole day mah? make sense. so i had like an hr plus before the meet. And ive got no place to go and bcoz i ws so blardie nervous, and the building was right in front of me i decided to go there and seek "solace" lol. i noe. i noe. maluating. i was also trying to find out more abt the sminar me n linzee planning. and so an hr plus passed and it was time to perform the obligation and he've reachd. Therefore nt to make myself feel guilty i said,

" If u need to do the obligation first, go ahead. I'll wait"

Here, i need to clarify i DIDNT FORCED him to go mahhhh.lol. i bet thats a first huh?

so.wen finally met, he brought me to MUSTAFA CNTRE. bcoz he needs to change money. before this i was told not to ask where im going.sit back and juz follow.( mcm lagi suspicious kan gitu?) so like yar ok, dowan to argue so follow order. The thing is, the moment we reachd MC, he got alot of calls and smses. dowan to be rude and eavesdrop or whatsoever bt cnt help to overhear bits and pieces of the conversations. tried to piece them together bt dowan to jump to conclusion or make any baseless assumptions. skali paiseh giler. walked ard abit there den went off to marina square. ( like of all places, why der? i tot if its suppose to be two pple going out, isint it basic courtesy to ask, where would u like to go?bt nvm.jz bcoz i was sure and i believed theres udang sebalik mee, i followed.) He said nk gi makan. dah reach there, nk mkn tapi ajak jln jln dulu.tk kasi mkn. pelik lah kan. and nk jln jln tapi aimless tk tau gi maner. lol. im sorry if i went mia most of the time. anddddd when i actually ask, "actually aper motive?"

HE GOT UPSET! so i din dare ask anymore qn.

and we actually reached the eating place,made ourselves comfortable and he ordered and the food came, that's where it started to sink in me." Ok, this is really it. No udang di sebalik batu kind of thing" While eating, he really got alot of smses den he gave me this valid reason which i didnt qns coz it sounded logical bt as we got engaged in conversations, it really did set me thinking, if ure working for this same eatery, arent u sick of eating the food all the time? and if u actually said ure a big eater, den why are u not touching your soup. and im finishing mine already. Halfway thru, he suddenly left me for quite a long while cz he got stomach upset or so he claimed.and he came back and continued our conversations.lol i tink i got engrossed in the conversations coz we were discussing a very wierd topic when suddenly the song "happy birthday" was played. I noe for one that means somebody gonna get her/his bdae celbrated. bcoz the last time round, the staff actually came out from the kitchen with the bdae cake i chckd out the kitchen.NOBODY.HAMPE.den i loooked at all the other patrons faces.there were as clueless as me! and HE also LOOKED CLUELESS LAH.and mcm bodoh gitu tk tau tgk sblah kanan.coz i din tot anybody will be there.and when i finally looked on the right

I GOT A BLARDIE SHOCK OF MY LIFE.

i saw LINZEE and she tipueeeeeeeed me and i actually banged the table and i think the cultery actually flew a bit.MY GAWD. maluating ok. coz i noe i was expecting this to happen but bcoz the whole dae felt it wasnt gonna happen so i decided to not hope anymore.and geeeeeeeeeeee.thisss happpeeeneeed. I KNEW IT. like too many loopholes.haha. but anywaez,

AKU SAYANG KORANG BYK BYK.THANK U FOR ALL THIS. AND THnk U For the 'Date'. tt was essential in building the highlight of the day.I am not somebody who's easy to surprise but u guys did it. and im really thankful for the existence of each and every one of u in my life. I love u all. and i will always pray for u guys and may this new year be a start of something new. Kamsa Hamida! Sarang hae yo!