.a heartfelt entry.

all i noe is tt its a blardie mess. it has always been.since 3 years ago. the best part is that, the mess wasnt created by me and ive to do the cleaning up. as always. its overwhelming, but i try my best to make things better. i dont understand why i bother staying n not leave after seeing the whole mess. *shrugz* i guess its part of growing up. things change, principals change. wadever.

there's so much tt needs to be said,to be done but all tt i cn manage is to stone, think abt it awhile and back off.leave it.procrastinate coz it hurts.my head really hurts after all those thinking. and i wonder when will this mess be cleared? i dunnoe.

im scared.i need a hug.badly. a hug which will ultimately tell me that "hush now, everything will be fine,coz im here". there's so many things happening. i dunnoe wer to start.


less than two more wks, to my 21st. and what have i achieved so far? nothing significant. i want much more in life. wer do i go next? wads my next step? wads the significance of being 21?it scares me sometimes. u're officially an adult now. there's always consequences to all ur actions.

careers.studies.life.love.

im nt rejecting u becoz of my past.ive told u my reasons.why dont u just give up. i dont need flowers or chocolates.i juz need tt give of solitude.i dont like to be question.i'll suffocate.








*shrugz* lost my train of tots. maybe i shud call khairi so tt he will asked me qns and really make me think abt stuffz.



ok.no.im going to bed.